I know it sounds a little bit corny, but we have a dream to continue our degree together because we want to go to France together! We have to complete our assigment before we graduated. Whoe we, Eim and Me =)
One of our dream would be, kiss infront of the Eiffel Tower, if we able to go to Eiffel larrr, ala any place pun takpe as long it is in France hehehehe..
Ok2 imagine romantic moment with your partner kat the most romantic place on erath!!!
looking back at my old post reminds me how much I have changed. From friends to someone special, from sweetheart to sickening person.
I read about one of the post, I wrote about my dress get wet in toilet while doing my french assignment. I call Eim, (my friend) was. I said please help me, I wet my dress. He said "ok ok aku datang skarang". He came straight away. So nice of him. But then after datang mmemang lar die tolong pastu die pegi gelak kan aku. haish.
And remember tak I post about Eimran yang prasan budak Australia, suke surf padahal tak penah surf. Skarang nie die da pandai surf! sangat hot!
Anyway, I already receive my 3rd gift from Eim!!! Couple keychain. I noe sgt biase jer tapi it's cute! hehe thanx sayang.
Since I was a child I don't experience of being a lavish little girl. If I want something, I have to work for it. It's the most tiring effort. Even how hard you work, u get paid less than your effort. As time pass by, my life is getting better. I finally have the chance to feel expensive cotton on my body, cool jeans where I'm no shame to show off the brand and nice bags to accesories on my hand. Yet, not what I want. Human were born to be greedy. So do I. My greedness makes me work hard, work and work until I get more. I never give up on it. I myself even wondering, when the hell will I give up.
I faced all those shits in my life. My effort is nothing. It sucks. We all know that.
We believe that one day our life will get better. Better than before and better as what we expected for. Thats what I believe. Used to. It was all crushed and break. I was believing something that only makes me fall. I prayed for my believe, I prayed a lot. But it is just a believe that turns to nightmares. Nightmare comes true.
I stop pray until last few weeks. I was so down, I can't believe that my life is not what I expected for, for the past 10 years. I start not pray to Him, I feel is like a waste if I keep praying but in the end I earn nothing except failure. I don't hate Him. He is still my dear God. The one that give me a chance to see the ugly of life. It's a challenge and I take it fairly.
There is one time, I was really in desperate time, where I need help, I want to sacred myself and put on my "telekung" and prayed to him. After the second rukuk, I stop, in the middle of prayer, I stare at my sejadah, and my heart says "what am I doing? When I need help I ask from Him, shame on you Amirah!" I feel so disgusted at myself. I am so ashame to bow to Him, I don' think I deserve His help. He would be happier to help someone that pray and do good things to Him,not me. The devil!
I stop pray to him again, because I was ashame.
I know deep inside my heart, I always thanked Him for the good things that happen in mylife, I never stop thanked to him, but I stop pray to Him. Weird though. Why? Because, I still mad at Him, why are doing this to me? I am loyal to you. I am a good person. I have too much burden to hold, and you give me more. Something that I'm unable to carry. You make me cried, and cried. Nonetheless, I grew my strenght. Yes, you make me strong to live in this cruel world, I still think it's unfair to me.
Life that is destine for me, that cruel to me, makes me being feared. Yet, I still thanked to Him.
One day, after my results announcement, I was shocked, I am one of the 7 top student out of 80 students in my course. My dream comes true. I know I can get it because I have worked for it. Again, I don't think so I can get it taking into account that I never pray to him. Once my name being announce as a Diploma holder (Very honourable pass with congratulations from the jury) first think that came out from my mouth "Syukur alhamdullilah"............
After all this while, I believe, it was You that helped me. You gave such a valuable lesson, You gave me hell and heaven. I understand, You want me to sip a little of bittersweet in life. And i betcha, there is more to go from You..
Thank You.... whatever hard life that I've been through, I want You to guide me to the correct path, I always need You indeed..
ouwh not to forget, I need my Eimran too. hehehe.. He is the love of my life =)
tak tawu lar bodoh sangat ke or bengap sangat. da banyak kali bagi tawu still do the same thing. is it so hard to do what i ask for. kalau aku boleh dengar cakap kau, ape masalah ko pulak this time. sumpah cibai!
Read more...It is just 3 days pass, my last day in college. Just get my diploma! horayy!! I have 1 day holiday jerr. Then working at my new baby cafe in Wangsa Maju. My first time of doing food business. And I'm still a baby for this. Don't expect much for the cafe lar. So far so good.
I will continue my degree this July. supposedly this April, 1 week after grad. but, I need to help my sis for the cafe and waiting for my study loan. xpela lambat 2 bulan jer.
Tired giler keje. when you work and start from scratch is really tiring. seriously sangat penat. and like my lecturer said. food business is not easy! huhu memang pun. but what ever it is, this baby cafe is a stepping stone for my carrier. hehe.
and last but not least, I miss my sayang Eim, it feel weird when you're not around. and please don't say that I only love you when you're gone k. i know i suck when i'm with you. but i love sangat2 taw =(
they said sometimes blogging can make you lose your friends.
what we write and what we express. what's the meaning of blog anyway? web blog. yes.
It's sort of like an open diary lar. the purpose is simple, let people know what we're thinking and purposely want people to know what we want to say.
face to face might be a proper way to do it. but, NAHH, why should i wasting my time for that. i face a lot of things, a serious thing, things that need most of my worth energy and brain. things that going to bring benefit to me.
i dont waste my time on silly things, because i don't want to look silly to a silly people.
I love you all people.
Hate me as you like, just don't bother my life and create such an unfortunate drama.
haha.
God bless you.
OMG!!!! HUAHAHAHHAHAHA I DUNNOE BUT I WANT TO LAUGH!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHA... HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH...
Read more...the stressful week almost ended. I have done my best. n I am so grateful that I'm doing quite well in my kitchen practical. Shockingly the same menu of the first group came out. Potato and leek soup, lamb rack and paris brest. Thanx to all chef and jury for helping and not making me so kanchiong! Masuk2 kitchen dah stress, cold and sweat my whole body. Haish nervousoverload sangat kowt. I just finish my Professional report oral with my great chef, chef Vincent. It's not what I expected, hard question and stuff. he just give realaxing question..ermm I shall say a conversation. My friend from the outside said " wahh still can laugh2 some more arrr.." hehehehe.. like i said it's a conversation and he did give me few tips.
I think im going to miss all my riends and my chefs. they are the bomb!
Taylors Hospitality School rocks!!!
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