raya sucks!

i fucking hate raya. it's like people don't believe in santa clause. yea i'm one of the species. i have a new freaking plan for my freaking future. i will work on my raya cuti, and bring the cuti to next month or whatever, have a great holiday alone. ngegehehe. time raya keje triple rate sial!

i hate raya! have i said that? yeah again IM FUCKING HATE RAYA!!!!

and i wish i dun have any heart. transplan heart would be great. i want to be mean to evryone. everyone in this whole fucking world.

or i wish im a zombie. nahhh not cool. i wish i can stand alone. i wish nobody exist in my world.

i want to be alone. nobody's bugging me. no pain sial! no pain! "nobody, no pain" agegegege.

FUCK- raya, man, woman, college,
 fuck the whole world

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What a tiring week. Exams and assigments on the same day??  the lectures think we are robot!! I've been sleeping like fish.. errr I guess.. fish do sleep right? ok I just sound like a bimbo. and finally I got my rest for 3 days and thank god no replacement! Please don't be.

I guess I'm going to screw up my French test! Fucking hard man!!! Theory part was ok. But goddamn! the listening!!!! I dun understand a single shit of what they were talking about. alrite what I heard was,
"Lea....Espagnole.....chocolat....au revoir!!! Yea that's basically I heard. the rest...SPENDERRR!!! satu haram tak paham. And the "grammier" what??? passe compose was ok. Gosh why do human created such a complicated words. And they have a gender. Funny right. The day before was my Marketing and Purchasing paper. It was ok. Thank god I manage to do it. Man, I should pay more attention in marketing class. I mean the "S" are so annoying and I barely listen to you Mr P.

It's fasting month. And I have Coctail class! WTF right!? I don't even taste all the liquors and stuff. I just get to smell it and it smells like maker pen..like most of it. It's like 15 types of coctails we got to try. it's awesome. Now I shall call myself as a Bar tender ngehehe even though my Brandy Alexander was hell!
So since the class was like 6 hours long, I get a lil "drunk" even I don't drink at all..
kinda lost my attention towards the lecturer. They were talking bout Gin.
Then the lecturer said "what's inside Gin class?"...... I said "Setan".. I dunnoe that I sounds loud and my fren laugh.. luckiliy he dint hear that. Next question he asked.."where is Gin?"....my friend pun da gile "dalam NERAKA!!!!" ....then only the two of us ketawe mcm sial sbb dah gile... Anyway I hate alcohol and I hate drinking.

another 4 weeks to go and I'll having my short holiday. Then go for training. haishhh...

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same old, same old....

"how does each one feel? when you walk around, looking at the persona, and experience spending a day in that persona"....


I want you to be you. You are the only you there is. be definition, you are the best you there is. If you are true to yourself, if you live according to your authentic self, you will be the best you can be. You don't need to compare yourself to anyone. This isn't an excuse for not being the best. It is the faster way to get there. We aren't in competition with others because afterall, we are part of the human drama.

that is the most inspired word I ever read in my whole life. I always feel how is it like to be him or her. Acting to be someone else or even faking myself, till at the stage where I can't define who actually am I.. I am fear with myself and I guess I'm underestimate myself. I still can't find the solution. And I'm afraid..so afraid....

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The Anger Bible

 Anger is by nature a painful state of mind. Whenever we develop anger, our inner peace immediately disappears and even our body becomes tense and uncomfortable. We are so restless that we find it nearly impossible to fall asleep, and whatever sleep we do manage to get is fitful and unrefreshing. It is impossible to enjoy ourself when we are angry, and even the food we eat seems unpalatable. Anger transforms even a normally attractive person into an ugly red-faced demon. We grow more and more miserable, and, no matter how hard we try, we cannot control our emotions.

 Why??

The other main reason we become unhappy and angry is because we are faced with a situation we do not want or like. Every day we encounter hundreds of situations we do not like, from stubbing our toe or having a disagreement with our partner, to discovering that our house has burnt down or that we have cancer; and our normal reaction to all of these occurrences is to become unhappy and angry. However, try as we might, we cannot prevent unpleasant things happening to us. We cannot promise that for the rest of the day nothing bad will happen to us; we cannot even promise that we shall be alive to see the end of the day.

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i'm sorry for what i post. i love my friends so much. yeah we shud'nt make assumption. but its hard to forget things that hurts. im sorry... apology accepted but not forgotten..

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look how happy they are, girl friends or shall I say, the best friends forever...

What happen to the "best friends forever huh??"

I feel like U guys abandoned me.

I changed my no, so I thought it's okay, maybe they can't contact me.

BUT, hey U guys have facebook rite? so what's up?

It was a nice picnic birthday party though.

Hey to U, happy belated birthday.

and to the other U, thanx for not inviting me, thats harsh.

yeah who am I anyway..

Thank You so much guys.. and the cupcakes I really do it with all my heart for my very best friend..but nahh U guys wont care evryone can bake.  

Cheers to you best friends forever!

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dear FIFA,
I wish to create a long name for you, but I cant figure any. If I'm a billionaire that don't care to be in prison and have lots of green paper to bail me out, I wish to sue you, yes you FIFA.
My future together with my family is like "telur di hujung tanduk" check dictionary if U are so stupid to know what is that.
You, yes who else u F has caused so many irrational accusation, towards my family and my relationship. U noe what, if both of us in a court now, I know I have no chance to win because everyone seems to adore You so much. The jury even the judge, and duhh the whole world will hate me if i could sue U. and I guess alien from freaking weird universe will banned me and plan to kidnap me as well.
dear FIFA,
thank you so much for making the whole world to hate me. I solute you. and I'm not surprise, another 4 years from now, if it such an unfortunate year for me, if it's a leap year, You are the cause that going to make me single throughout my whole life..

yours truly foe,

suck balls!

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